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When It All Finally Makes Sense

But for me, this wasn't a jump. It wasn't even a jog. No, this was a prolonged limp caused by a bear trap being constructed around my leg and no matter what I did or how hard I tried, the bear trap wouldn't come off. Yeah, it would loosen up a bit so that I could limp forward a bit faster than normal, or it would become a little lighter so I could perhaps swing my leg forward like I'm about to hit the meanest Electric Slide possible, but the trap never comes off. I pry and claw at it and I believe that if I could just remove this bear trap that was constructed around my leg, I can quickly clean up my wound and run with the best of the best. The trap is persistent. The trap won't let go.

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We Still Alive

To say that the last two years have been difficult is an understatement. We've lost family, we've lost friends, we've further lost our collective minds. We've lost jobs, we've lost touch with our humanity. Some of us may have even lost the will to go on. Yet, we still alive. Heroes died. The American Dream … Continue reading We Still Alive

We’ve Been in Mourning the Entire Year

Representative John Lewis has passed away. I barely reacted to it. Not because I'm insensitive. John Lewis is a legend, he's fought for us his entire life, took beatings on top of beatings and endured things that many of us, such as a certain bitch made former mack turned sentient piece of shit, would crumble … Continue reading We’ve Been in Mourning the Entire Year

Quarantine Thoughts

And as you can see, I am not dead. I'm going to be real with you. Keeping up with everything that the COVID-19 pandemic has thrown at us these past couple of months has been absolutey exhausting and not conducive for my particular brand of creativity. Work has had constant changes because they are pretty … Continue reading Quarantine Thoughts

What It Really Is

Per dictionary.com I talk about anxiety quite a bit. It is a topic of frequent thought and conversation in my life. There is one word in that definition that I want you to pay the most attention to. Fear. Per dictionary.com I want to bring your attention to that word, because for the most part, … Continue reading What It Really Is

The Art of Storytelling

I've been writing for 20 years. I always knew I wanted writing to be involved in my life, but up until high school, I didn't believe that I would actually make a career out of it because becoming a successful writer, especially back when I first considering it was a bit difficult.* So I always … Continue reading The Art of Storytelling

Quickie: We Actually Give A Damn About Our Reputations

Obvious title is obvious. We absolutely care about what people think about us, and to me at least, the sad part about it is that we have to, because of the fact that even when you are in a zone, blocking out the world and focusing on one thing, someone else may even just be … Continue reading Quickie: We Actually Give A Damn About Our Reputations

Work and Stuff

I work for a pretty big company. No, I'm not telling you what that company is. I answer the phone for them. This is position comes with its own set of parameters - my calls should be a certain length, I shouldn't do outbounds a lot, they damn near don't want me to take the … Continue reading Work and Stuff

The Slow Goodbye

I come from alcoholism. Real live alcoholism. I come from drunken parties, drunken fights, drunken nights in the house. Once upon a time, I believed that this was my fate, and for at least the last ten years, since I turned 21 and could buy it myself, I accepted it as my fate. I drank. … Continue reading The Slow Goodbye

I Got What I Wanted

You know, I really dislike having a fucking job. I like making money, but I dislike having a fucking job. I say that because it's fucking December and my last post was in February and I had this whole plan to be posting at least once a month this year and yet here the hell … Continue reading I Got What I Wanted