We’ve Been in Mourning the Entire Year

Representative John Lewis has passed away. I barely reacted to it. Not because I'm insensitive. John Lewis is a legend, he's fought for us his entire life, took beatings on top of beatings and endured things that many of us, such as a certain bitch made former mack turned sentient piece of shit, would crumble … Continue reading We’ve Been in Mourning the Entire Year

Quarantine Thoughts

And as you can see, I am not dead. I'm going to be real with you. Keeping up with everything that the COVID-19 pandemic has thrown at us these past couple of months has been absolutey exhausting and not conducive for my particular brand of creativity. Work has had constant changes because they are pretty … Continue reading Quarantine Thoughts

What It Really Is

Per dictionary.com I talk about anxiety quite a bit. It is a topic of frequent thought and conversation in my life. There is one word in that definition that I want you to pay the most attention to. Fear. Per dictionary.com I want to bring your attention to that word, because for the most part, … Continue reading What It Really Is

The Art of Storytelling

I've been writing for 20 years. I always knew I wanted writing to be involved in my life, but up until high school, I didn't believe that I would actually make a career out of it because becoming a successful writer, especially back when I first considering it was a bit difficult.* So I always … Continue reading The Art of Storytelling

Quickie: We Actually Give A Damn About Our Reputations

Obvious title is obvious. We absolutely care about what people think about us, and to me at least, the sad part about it is that we have to, because of the fact that even when you are in a zone, blocking out the world and focusing on one thing, someone else may even just be … Continue reading Quickie: We Actually Give A Damn About Our Reputations

Work and Stuff

I work for a pretty big company. No, I'm not telling you what that company is. I answer the phone for them. This is position comes with its own set of parameters - my calls should be a certain length, I shouldn't do outbounds a lot, they damn near don't want me to take the … Continue reading Work and Stuff

The Slow Goodbye

I come from alcoholism. Real live alcoholism. I come from drunken parties, drunken fights, drunken nights in the house. Once upon a time, I believed that this was my fate, and for at least the last ten years, since I turned 21 and could buy it myself, I accepted it as my fate. I drank. … Continue reading The Slow Goodbye

I Got What I Wanted

You know, I really dislike having a fucking job. I like making money, but I dislike having a fucking job. I say that because it's fucking December and my last post was in February and I had this whole plan to be posting at least once a month this year and yet here the hell … Continue reading I Got What I Wanted

New Year, Same Me?

I don't like making New Year's resolutions. I don't like them because I don't keep them and I don't keep them because the pressure to make and keep them becomes too much and I end up saying fuck it at least a week into the new year. The act of making resolutions for me is … Continue reading New Year, Same Me?

Guilt and Shame Are A One-Two (One-Two) Punch

Stop sacrificing because feeling like you need to, for the validity of chossing the mature thing. The survival thing. The "adult" thing [sic].Iron Lion Jackson As we are prone to do, a good friend and I were having a conversation about my various neuroses. He told me that I am carrying a lot of guilt … Continue reading Guilt and Shame Are A One-Two (One-Two) Punch