#RhythmandBluesVariety Hour: True Friends Stab You in the Front

From the collection The Unsungs

The Unsungs are the items that didn’t fit my stands to make a collection or incomplete items, or just simple poems.

True Friends Stab You in the Front- Written 12/14/10

And I know where my real friends stand

As they face me with the knife in their hand

And they tell me that I am always wrong

They tell me why they have to bring me down

Instead of doing like others and giving me the run around

Then I tell them that I love you all

 

Because they’re the only ones I can trust

To stab with me with a metal blade covered in rust

Because we all know

True friends stab you in the front

 

I won’t take no backstabbers talking to me

Waiting to stab me with so much malice and glee

My friends are honest and in return so am I

And when we hurt someone we look them in the eye

And say that this is going to hurt so much more

Than the worst pain you ever felt before

But I’d rather have you than somebody else

Stabbing me wholeheartedly in my chest

 

Because they’re the only ones I can trust

To stab me with a metal blade covered in rust

And we all know

True friends stab you in the front

 

 

#RhythmandBluesVariety Hour: Thunder in Paradise

From the collection Kingdom

First, fuck Hulk Hogan.

Thunder in Paradise was his foray into first-run syndication television territory and it lasted for a good eight months and one television movie back in 1993-1994. Thunder was the boat.

I found it to be a dope title.

Thunder in Paradise- Written 10/9/11

There’s a darkness in my soul

I hear that thunder roll

You don’t even look at me the same way anymore

We gotta make this right

Don’t wanna start a fight

But I hear some trouble in our paradise

Our love is growing cold

I hear that thunder roll

Yes there’s some thunder in our paradise

 

I don’t feel as close to you as I should

I don’t know what’s going on between us

What are we letting defeat us

I’d meet you halfway if only you would

Things have changed with us so quickly

All the love gone in the blink of an eye

I don’t know exactly why

I can feel it in the way you kiss me

 

You don’t touch me like you used to

You don’t fuck me like you used to either

Every other word is something smart

I feel this hardness growing in my heart

(I have to tell you)

 

There’s a darkness in my soul

I hear that thunder roll

You don’t even look at me the same way anymore

We gotta make this right

Don’t wanna start a fight

But I hear some trouble in our paradise

Our love is growing cold

I hear that thunder roll

Yes there’s some thunder in our paradise

 

Baby when did we become so distant

Do either of us know the truth

Where is the proof

That we were crazy about each other for a brief instance

You don’t even call you don’t even smile

Am I not doing what I’m supposed to do for you

What do you want me to do

Because I’ve been out of answers for a long while

 

Do I not love you like I used to

Do I not need you like I used to

We’ve created a small slice of paradise

And baby you are my life

 

There’s a darkness in my soul

I hear that thunder roll

You don’t even look at me the same way anymore

We gotta make this right

Don’t wanna start a fight

But I hear some trouble in our paradise

Our love is growing cold

I hear that thunder roll

Yes there’s some thunder in our paradise

#RhythmandBluesVariety Hour: Another Shame

This is included in the collection Everything But the Kitchen Sink

Obsessive lust is a bitch. I never want to feel that way about anyone again. But damn if it wasn’t inspiring.

Another Shame Written 5/10/06

Now what have all my efforts been for

If I’m gonna go running back to your door

Cause I’m a fool for you, you’re not a fool for me

And I don’t understand what can possibly result from this

This shit that I put myself through

Damn it I was supposed to be through

A long time ago

 

I rehabbed my senses

Built my defenses

Contemplated my reasons for having this disease

And tried to put you behind me

Tried to redefine me

But I couldn’t shake the stigmata of you off my very being

And I’m still blind for you while I’m very much seeing

 

That you still got me by the reins

You’re back to driving me insane

And you know it’s a shame

 

(Shame, shame, shame)

That I keep running back to you

Why do I do what I do

(Shame, shame, shame)

That I have such a hold

And I can’t let go

(Shame, shame, shame)

That I want you back after all this time

That by denying you I was living a lie

And you know

You know it’s a shame

 

What has all my misery been for

Now that you’re back I yearn for you even more

I hate how I run back into your arms

I think you’re causing my sanity some harm-

Ful intentions

Got me inventing new ways to get out

Damn it I want to get out

Away from you

 

I’m your slave

Can’t change my ways

Hypnotized by your eyes

And I’ve failed to realize

The shit that happened to make me leave

Make me grieve

Over this affair that will never die

I can’t leave you alone, why do I even try

 

And yes you’ve still got me by the reins

Back to the pleasure of driving me insane

And you know it’s a shame

 

(Shame, shame, shame)

That I keep running back to you

Why do I do what I do

(Shame, shame, shame)

That I have such a hold

And I can’t let go

(Shame, shame, shame)

That I want you back after all this time

That by denying you I was living a lie

And you know

You know it’s a shame

 

 

#RhythmandBluesVarietyHour: Living in Insanity

When I say I’ve been dealing with this monster in my head for years, I mean it. This piece goes back to college, but I probably had the melody and some of the words for it down in high school somewhere.

If I have to say so myself, this is one of the most honest things I’ve ever written.

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#RhythmandBluesVarietyHour: Shame

*Note, this is an excerpt from the yet to be published collection Everything But the Kitchen Sink. I’m putting myself out there y’all.

Shame

            So this is a duet. Two ain’t shit partners who realize that they collectively ain’t shit. The perfect relationship.

Shame Written 2/16/05

1

This ain’t another break up song

That’s the last thing we need

But tell me why do you keep on killing me

I want you in my life

I want you in my heart

But you can’t seem to see

And you act like you’re in the dark

Cause it’s a goddamn shame

That you like to act this way

I don’t know what to do

For the sake of me and you

I want you in my heart

I want you for myself

Can’t stand being alone

Don’t want to be with nobody else

2

I ain’t the one tripping

You’re killing me inside

Because you keep coming back late at night

You look right past my face

You keep on playing games

If I’m doing wrong

Then we’re one in the same

Cause I cheat just like you do

Play the game by all the rules

I don’t know what to do

For the sake of me and you

I can’t see how you can look at me

Tell me all these damn lies baby

1

I can’t see how I’d allow you to drive me crazy

You want to break me down, break me down

2

Cause it’s a goddamn shame

That you like to act this way

I don’t know what to do

For the sake of me and you

I want you in my heart

I want you for myself

Can’t stand being alone

Don’t want to be with nobody else

Tell me now

Is this the way things are supposed to be

I wonder how

I ignored this problem, I just couldn’t see

Us falling

Into despair

You’re not being fair

To what I want

Or how I feel

1

I can’t see how you can look at me

Tell me all these damn lies baby

2

I can’t see how I’d allow you to drive me crazy

You want to break me down, break me down

Cause it’s a goddamn shame

That you like to act this way

I don’t know what to do

For the sake of me and you

I want you in my heart

I want you for myself

Can’t stand being alone

Don’t want to be with nobody else